Just say no

Day 130: One thing I learned today…

I have the hardest time SAYING NO! And I end up putting myself in positions which do not serve me.

Two weeks ago I was asked by someone whom I just met for a “favor”. And what did I do… I added it to my to-do list and added a follow up convo on my calendar. I looked at it day after day. I was frustrated with myself. I am the type of person who likes to put my all into something (but I knew I could have helped out more).

Today, I was honest with myself and the individual in stating I am not able to continue with this at least for the time being. It felt good to say this out loud. I’m not going to lie, in the back of my head I thought hmmm maybe I just won’t show up to the meeting or I can just cancel and reschedule. Neither of those choices were really a choice. And neither of those choices would allow me to speak my truth.

So I stated how I felt. And guess what, that was all. I didn’t have to explain myself, I don’t have guilt, I am content with my choice. The individual also appreciated my help and offered to help me out in the future. So all in all a learning experience today. Hope I can take this and continue to speak my truth.